OOPS!

I forgot about this Blog for a while!  Sorry about that.  No excuses, just forgot.  Nothing special has been happening.  I did go to see Avatar in 3D, Wow!  Nice experience.  I really got into the movie.  It is kind of a bit more violent than I might like, but it was very engrossing and striking.  Yes, I liked it and the 3D was not distracting and quite natural.  I think I would see another 3D movie.

I am planning to see my family in Arizona before too long.  I hope I can put the money together for it.  It doesn't help that my pension income was just  cut by almost $300 a month.  Where are those pick-up jobs when you need them?  I am trying very hard to not spend money.  It's a real challenge.  I tend to not make many large purchases, but I have been making a bunch of smaller ones.  I need to back off and only spend a bare minimum.  Traveling to Hartford all the time really eats gas!  Burning gas costs money.  It's one of the small ways I spend money.  Discipline!  That's what I need!  It's also hard for me to do!  Alas!

Oh, Yes.  I went to the Doctor's last week and the week before.  The good news is that I am healthy.  The bad news is that I haven't lost more weight.  It seems that I am a stress snacker.  Yes, even with gastric banding I can snack and abuse things.  Once again Discipline is required.  That is just what I am short of.  Of course less stress might help, too.  If I look at things carefully I am probably the one responsible for my own stress.  Yes, I believe that I have been let down a bit, but I am responsible for feeling stress over it.  That's all a story in itself and it's one I won't get into here.  Sorry!

I'm going to end here.  The blogger is acting strange and I don't want to begin all over.  I'll be back soon.  I promise.

Love,
Shel

PS,  The commenting system I have been using is going away to be replaced by a pay service.  Though I understand the need to bill for services, the previous one was free and I don't need more bills now.  I will probably loose all my old comments soon.  There's not much I can do about it.  Goodby Haloscan!
Shel

January Blues

January, the month, is named after the Roman God Janus.  Janus is a two faced God, one face pointing in one direction and the other in the opposite.  Janus was the God of Portals (doors and gates and the like) and also the past and the future and curiously fate.  The Romans had many Gods and some of them overlapped.  Dis was also God of fate in a dark kind of way.  So in January we look forward and we look back and some of us make resolutions to do things we probably won't do in the end.

I have never been one to be able to make resolutions and follow through with them.  I have been able to change my life but that didn't come from a list of resolutions.  It came from me realizing I needed to make those changes and doing it.  I didn't wait for Janus, Fate or Dis to intervene I just did it.  What about those things I couldn't do?  They still remain to be done.  Maybe I'll get to them in time.

I haven't been very consistent writing.  I have been busy, doing other things, forgot, avoided writing, etc, etc.  Those are the excuses.  I haven't felt like writing (truth.)  What's been happening?  I went to Boston to visit a friend and stayed five days while it snowed.  I had Christmas with my father and it was a delightful day.  I miss my granddaughter more than you can imagine. And things have been going as usual.

Saturday went home and ate too much
Ate the wrong thing for emotional reasons
Vomited
Had four nights of fitful sleep
Put back in perspective by my Therapist
Priceless

 Do you get the idea?  I feel better now, though.  I guess that life will never be exactly what I want it to be. Maybe Janus or Dis is more in control than I thought.

Love,
Shel