Tuesday, December 23, 2008


After the snow came the cold! It is cold outside, in the teens. Brrrrrr! I have been in a real state and it has been reflected here on this blog. A lot of it has revolved around a friendship that has hit on hard times. I did receive a very nice email from my friend. I am hoping that we will be able to work things out. When there was no communication there was no hope of working things out, now at least there is hope. It's at least kind of fitting of the season. The Christmas season speaks to me of hope in our world. Please notice I said hope. I have hope for a reasonable outcome. I have no expectations of perfection, in fact I have few real expectations, just a hope that there will be a reasonable outcome. She is a nice person and I have liked her a lot.

I had breakfast with my oldest son this morning. I am guessing that is the extent of family involvement I'll have this Christmas, except for phone calls. It will be a different Christmas.

Oh, I am so broke! Fortunately I monitored my bank account in time. Spending has stopped! I will be getting some money soon, but for now I am almost as broke as I have ever been. Actually, four years ago or so just after chemo ended I was within $10.00 of being totally broke with no prospects of income. I at least can expect my pension check soon and I have a church job this weekend. There is money in my account now, but not much. I was able to buy some presents, so for the moment all is good.

I know in my mind that the days get longer now, but the days are still very short. It is quarter of five at the moment and it is almost totally dark outside. It's good to be inside and warm. One problem I find is keeping my fingers warm. I am not sure why I feel cold fingers, but they are often like ice. I have lost in the range of 85 to 90 lbs in less than a year. Maybe it has something to do with that.

I just learned that the T'ai Chi class is off for the next two weeks. There wasn't one last week because the instructor was ill and it has been called off for the next two weeks. I guess I will just have to self motivate and try to remember the exercises. I feel so much better when I do the exercises.

I seem to be quite alone at home at the moment. This is highly unusual. Usually I am the one who is out and about, though C downstairs works daily. She is often home by this time, but I haven't heard anything from her yet. B & T are out shopping I

This all for today. Be well and keep warm.

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