Realization

I just realized that it has been a while since I entered a Blog post. The time has flown. I have been busy. I've been a little depressed. I was absent minded about it. Take your pick of excuses. It's just been a while. I have thought about blogging but just didn't get to it. Sorry!

I am moving forward with LAP-Band surgery plans. I should know early this week a definite date for the surgery. I probably will be very late this month or early next month. The whole thing really kind of depresses me. When I look in the mirror I look so fat and unattractive. I know that this will be a solution, but it really means that eating will be an extremely different experience for the rest of my life. It is sad that I just can't seem to eat normally and not put on weight. So much of what little personal life I have revolves around meals. Maybe that has been the problem. Immediately after the surgery I will be eating about 2 oz portions and I am assured I will be full. In any case things are progressing.

My granddaughter had her second birthday and there was a party. Everything was very nice. I have been seeing my family more recently and that has been a good thing. My sons and I are speaking more and it all has been good.

I visited my father (96) and my aunt (92.) My father is in great health and is sharp as a tack. My aunt had several small strokes last year and the beginning of this year. She is getting better slowly and is a wonder of resilience for her age.

So many thoughts have been going through my head and this was supposed to be a quick update that I believe I will end here for now. One of my trains of thought has been "the fate of the Universe" or some thoughts on Dark matter/energy/fluid. We'll see on that one (I know I am really off the wall!) I have also thought of writing a bit about what being transsexual really means. I know that that last one has been done over and over, but I want to make it kind of personal.

Until next time, be well!

Love,
Shel