Miserable

Yesterday was a very miserable day. It didn't start that way, but things changed quickly with lunch. I don't really know why, but lunch gave me agony for the whole rest of the day. I actually was unable to eat or drink anything else until late in the evening. I can still feel some of the distress today, though I was able to eat breakfast ok. My coffee didn't go down well which is an indicator that things still are not right. I had a very mild and soft breakfast and I guess I will need to have a mild and soft lunch and possibly dinner. I also will need to drink water like crazy because I wasn't able to drink much yesterday. Yesterday at lunch I had a small piece of chicken. Usually I do well with chicken. I really don't know what happened.

It is really hard to describe how miserable I feel when eating goes wrong like it did. It ruins everything I am doing and keeps me tied to being near a toilet. I had a Dr's appointment with a dermatologist and later my Tai Chi class. I had to keep the Dr's appointment because he is so hard to see. By the way everything is fine. All the little spots I showed him are non-cancerous. The non good thing is that there isn't much that can be done about the biggest problem (discoloration on my lower right leg.) I'll just have to live with that. I usually enjoy Tai Chi, but I was absolutely miserable yesterday. Even the calming effects of Tai Chi didn't do much for me. I ended up later just breaking down in tears (that didn't help much either.)

Today I hope will be a much better day. So far it has been. The weather promises to be lousy (cold and rainy) but I have a warm heart so things will be better.

Love,
Shel